Home.

As in I want to be there. But I'm not. It's twenty to one in the morning, I'm sitting in the reception area by myself on the PC, it's pretty rancid but it's an escape I suppose. I'm reallllly not well, I feel so sick. Feeling ill just makes feeling homesick even worse. I miss my own bed sooo much. Not having Mark and Natalie is like losing an arm. And it's absolutely unreal that I wont see Conor for ages. I'm properly gutted about that. For the benefit of Blogger, Conor (the boyfriend) is moving to Turkey for a few weeks to brighten up his life a bit. Which is great but I will miss him quite a lot. I was looking forward to having a boya over the summer. Obviously I'm not calling it quits because that would just be stupid, but I am scared that this might make things harder when I move away to Uni considering we will have spent little to no time with each other.

I'm not looking forward to going back upstairs to bed, I'm in one of those moods. I hate how everyone back home is in bed. Makes me feel really alone haha
I'm not feeling as sick since I started writing this blog though which is a good thing. The music in this hotel is horrendous...I don't even know what it is. It's almost as if they want me to die of depression haha

I hope this whole homesick thing passes over. It will.

FS! I miss folk loads. I think maybe I've had too much sun aswell and thats why I'm sick of it. It totally drains you! I went to see Natasha Bedingfield tonight at Universal Studios which was pretty random and even though it was night time I was sweating SOO bad. Like actually dripping I HATE it. It makes me feel so disgusting. BOKE.

I bought some new clothes the other day though, successful buys thank goodness considering how bad my first shopping trip was. First trip I went to Premium Outlets, I bought new shoes which are ok, just trainers really. Bought a shirt and a t-shirt from Polo Ralph Lauren and I hate them. The shirt doesnt fit me, it's HUGE and its a medium, wtf? And I got oil on my t-shirt at go-karting the other day. I also bought a pair of boxers which I love and a new pair of Calvin Klein jammies. Mmmm.

I went to Hollister last night where I was reeling in the buys. Got two mint shirts, a pair of those insanely comfy joggie bottoms and a pair of jeans. Totally going back for a polo, a hoodie and some boxers. I only have like $160 left though. But thats fine cause my birthday is coming up. 5 days now I think.

This Blog Post is bloody massive! Am I hang spell checking it! I hate mistakes but there's no way I'm reading all this to check for mistakes! Well I SUPPOSE I should go really. I think this entire outburst is due to just feeling homesick. I still don't feel superb likes but I do feel better. Look on the bright side and all that. How much do I just know Mark will start reading this and stop when he realises how big it is lmao.

Sea World tomorrow, probably go see Shamu <3

Ps, I Still Miss Everyone.